This won't be about machining. This is more personal. If you don't want to read it, that is fine. I'll be back to machining soon.
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I have begun to crave clarity. I know I've mentioned it before. Seeing clearly is such a gift. As I've aged, my eyes have started to do what all old eyes do. One eye has gotten better at distance, while losing near vision, and the other has done just the opposite. Vision changes as we get older...
Did you ever think that vision could be painful? I had a close call last year with a detachment of the vitreous in my eye. A big purple streak in one eye, like an arc flash, on a cloudy day while I was driving. No reason to have that, and it lasted for well over 90 minutes. I had two laser treatments since, as I have a family history of detachments of the retina. Both eyes are doing well. But those treatments were very nearly torture. The bright flashes of a green laser and pressure on my eyeball were tough to endure. But I still have good vision. Clarity cost me a bit of pain.
Clarity of position this year has been quite painful too. Seeing family members suffer without any ability to mitigate it put me in my place in January / February. God is the only One who can mitigate that type of suffering. Slamming headlong into my own physical weakness through the head injury was sobering. Having family abandon me in the midst of being unable to care for myself showed me their priorities. It also showed me that I could manage just enough to keep body and soul together, God gave me strength to do that. I didn't have it in me to. Having a coworker submarine me was harsh, but I needed to negotiate for myself. And I was successful, but only with God's intervention. Watching the .gov abandon all pretense of integrity has clearly shown me that God is the only one that cares for the people under His authority.
I follow scripture as best I can understand it: "a man shall leave his father and mother, cleave to his wife, and they shall be one flesh." I started a family, and they are all adults now. I've had setbacks, but they have brought clarity. Knowing where you stand is priceless. It's painful too, but I'm not focusing on the pain. I'm focusing on the clarity.
So, here I present something I have shamelessly borrowed. I found my path coming close to this already. It was oddly prescient. Prescient: adjective, having or showing knowledge of events before they take place.
Manifesto
*edited
You are reading his blog every day, right?
Feel free to ask how the progress is progressing. I welcome accountability.
To those of you who commented last year, the encouragement you gave was needed and appreciated. I can't even tell you how much. I'd punch you in the arm if you were standing next to me.
Okay, back to normal, scheduled programming.
Wow. Thanks STxAR. A writer can never ask for higher praise than to have one's writings be of use to others. The edits look like great editions.
ReplyDeleteHappy I found my way here.
I'm happy you didn't mind me stealing your hard work. I appreciate what you did.
DeleteAnd you are welcome to come here often. It's time to get back and hit some machining work. I've been doing some stuff, and it is therapy. Let me tell you. Even if I don't make a living with this, it is wonderful. It's a part of the Creator's image, for us to need to create.
Thanks you ST, I needed that. A lot to think about there and take in.
ReplyDeleteNow back to the ax and grind stone....
You are a huge encouragement to me. You have invested a lot of time and coin in me. I appreciate it, truly, I mean that. Without your mentoring, I'd be a lost lamb, probably missing a couple digits. I'm looking forward to a continuing apprenticeship! Thanks Spartan-C.
DeleteI'm here anytime you need me. Got to have someone to pass on what I know about machining.
DeleteSTxAR, (and evidently THBB) well flippin' done. I like it and think I'll start down that path. Glad things are improving for you and wish you a very Happy New Year.
ReplyDeleteJuvat, thank you. High Praise indeed.
DeleteThanks juvat. TB nailed it. I've been moving in that direction already, almost like "when the student is ready, the teacher will arrive." Hope you enjoyed your festivus and the dusting of snow.
DeleteGod Bless ya man.
ReplyDeleteYou have truly bounced off the bottom this last year and I hope and pray that the negativity finds someplace else to dwell. I hear Nancy Pelosi has room.
The eyesight thing is plenty scary, especially on top of the mental fog that seems to be persisting.
From my own experiences here lately I have finally figured that that I just need to slow down sometimes. Most things aren't worth getting all excited about and need to be rushed anyway.
That;'s the other thing that has come to me in my old age, the ability to figure out what's important and what can wait until I feel like getting around to it.
It's amazing how many things got kicked off the top of the list here lately.
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Keep after it but like it's written above in that excellent piece you quoted, take care of yourself first and foremost. Those who should have been there for you in your hour of need have shown their true colors. Return that in kind.
Phil, He has. Sometimes you need the dead wood trimmed out of the way of the living wood. Eye doc said last week, I could've lost my vision easily during the head event if I hadn't had the eye surgery done. yikes. God was watching out for me, no doubt.
DeleteNothing is under our control, is it?
ReplyDeleteIf you find clarity, STxAR - be sure to let the slow kids in on it too. Happy New Year!
I will. Your first line seems to be at the root of it all right now. Merry New Year to you, too!
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